Now What?

We are home now and things are looking good so far!

We gave Zhen free reign in the child-friendly part of the house to see what he would do. We didn't want to restrict him. He has been in heaven! He loves to play with the big plastic trucks. He goes into his bedroom and closes the door and just plays and plays. He's quite happy to play by himself for now. That's fine.

Zhen does not know how to crawl! He crawls on one knee and one foot. It's very awkward, sort of like limping. He was encouraged to walk at the orphanage. The caregivers were forever forcing him to walk to me. But, I don't want him walking just yet, knowing that he never had the opportunity to crawl. The coordination that is takes to crawl properly builds important pathways in the brain. I'm happy for him to crawl as long as he likes.

Zhen has been sleeping since 1pm when I laid him down for a nap. Now it is 7:3opm and I'm wondering...is he just feeling very relaxed here? Has he been sleep deprived? Is he just trying to adjust to our time zone? Am I going to pay for this later tonight? haha!

Theo is such a little love. I found out that he can roll over and he can hold his head up while laying on his tummy. He is a restless and light sleeper, forever flopping around. He often sleeps with his eyes open! He always rocks himself to sleep in a certain way. He claspes his hands and laces his fingers as if to pray, then he rolls back and forth very strenuously. Apparently he does't/can't get to sleep without doing this because he didn't nap at all while we traveled and while I was holding him all day.

Theo is so tiny. You cannot imagine unless you see him in person. I wanted to take him into the doctor's office today, just to get an accurate weight on him. But, the doc was out of the office today so I guess we will try again on Monday.

I'm just concerned. I know that I'm feeding him enough. I know that he's not throwing up like he did at the orphanage. But, what if? What if he has lost weight over the past few days? What if he gets sick over the weekend? There is crud that has been going around this house for the past month. He just doesn't have a sliver of reserve in his little emaciated body. He absolutely could not have survived transfer to the "house for invalids," as they call the mental institution in his birth country.

So now what? It feels good just to be home with the boys but I know they have other needs. Theo needs a dentist, bad. He also needs a nutritionist and possibly some sort of rehab therapy. Zhen needs to see a cardiologist and also to be tested for lead and parasites.

I'm the type of person who would have had all their appointments lined up already if it had been possible. Now my brain is in a jet-lag induced fog and I can't decide what should be done first.