Sitting here tonight feeling so very blessed. And yet, so very dissatisfied.
Lately at night I've been watching some documentaries about climbing Mt. Everest. (I gotta be up to give midnight meds.) Did you know that most of the deadly accidents on expeditions to the highest peak on earth occur on the descent? On the way down?
Traveling to Eastern Europe and bringing home our boys was a definite spiritual peak. I walked closely with my Lord through some very dark places and days. I was fearless. What a high place!
Now that we've been home several months I'm on the way down from that peak. Coming down isn't nearly as exciting. Especially when you find yourself doing face plants! I'll get through it, but no one really talks about how to get down. We all struggle and scrape to get up...but then what?
I'm feeling very powerless and weak. I feel like a failure some days. Especially when it comes to advocating for the children we left behind. I left a huge chunk of my heart behind when we left. I can't just sit here enjoying my blessings. I've got to DO something.
Anyone else have trouble getting down from the mountain? How did you manage?
Monday, November 15, 2010
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Yep - Haven't gotten through it yet. I'm with you...
ReplyDeleteSame here...still getting through it.
ReplyDeletetaking one day at a time. It doesnt look like what I thoght it would on this side. Not all bad. Just different. Keep posting. I know I keep asking you to..... I promise to do the same. I am so thankful my husband and I are in agreemet to do this again, and not sure what that looks like.
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